Monday, January 25, 2010

Not-so-perfect day..

Do you have one of those days which is not-so-perfect? It starts as a perfectly normal day but ends up as one of the lousiest if you get my drift..

A day when your heart gets so heavy that it actually aches.. A day when you feel you are the only person on this earth.. Despite feeling lonely you don't want your roommate to come back home simply coz you don't want to be in the company of anyone who is remotely human.. A day when communication with people is the biggest challenge.. You start writing this blog but you are not sure till the end that it will get published.. You open a book to get your mind off things but after 5 minutes you are still staring at the same page.. A day when you are scared that you may not find the purpose and meaning in life.. A day when you simply can't wash away all your miserable thoughts with tears..

All this for no apparent reason!

Yesterday was good.. I know tomorrow will be better too .. but its today that hurts.. I hope it ends soon.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

My "unexpected" love...

I know I took forever to write this blog. I was torn between writing about We-the 5 or about Bronzie. Thanks to Shan, she made it easy for me to decide.

I decided to write about my dog Bronzie. He is a Pomeranian. He is my cutest little boy.

I found Bronzie in Oct’08 in my school parking lot and it all started from there. Can’t believe it has been more than a year now. He was one year old when I found him. From the time I met him, it was quite obvious that Bronzie had suffered some trauma in his unknown past. He used to be scared of people and whenever I gave him food he used to carry it to some place else and eat there. For the first month or so he did not know how to bark or growl. As days passed by, he settled down and became more and more comfortable with me and started showing his true colors. lol… Now he behaves like a prince from the wonderland. He demands attention and love. He believes it is his birth right and I should love him.

Over the months, Bronzie became a very important part of my life. I can’t think of a day without him. I was never a dog person. Anyone who sees me now will never be able to figure out that just about a year back I was scared of dogs and never wanted one in my life!

There are so many interesting things which can be told about Bronzie. I don’t know where to start. He is so naughty but acts so innocent that I don’t know whether to scold him or love him or laugh at him. He is the most amazing dog I ever saw/met. He is very smart. He listens and understands everything I say but at times behaves as if he did not listen/follow. I was really amazed to see that he understands my mood swings so well and acts accordingly.

Our relationship has every flavor to it: Love, understanding, caring, and even hurt/ego. There are days where he will do something which we both know he is not supposed to do. When he realizes I am hurt/upset with his behavior, he tries to repair the damage by coming up to me and gently snuggling ever closer until I am finally compelled to love him again. And then his joy knows no bounds, and surprisingly, I am happier than before too!!

There are many characteristics of Bronzie which one must know.

First thing which comes in my mind is he is a very good actor. Whenever I am going out leaving him alone in the house, he will act so helpless and make a poor face that I will think twice before leaving him alone. As we all know, looks can be deceptive.

He acts like the most obedient pet in this whole world. But never fall for that. Whenever I ask him not to do anything he won’t do it only as long as I am around. He will utilize the first opportunity he gets to the fullest: as soon as I turn, he will make sure he finishes what he started. lol… Best part is as soon as I say “Bronzie” he will stop doing it and go back to his place.

The funniest characteristic of Bronzie which you should know is he thinks or at least tries to behave as if he is very brave. But the fact is he is nowhere close. As soon as he comes across something which he is not familiar with, he will go under the bed/couch and bark at it forever. He uses these "comfort zones" as his den and believes that nothing can cause him any harm when he is over there.

Bronzie is a distant relative of Kumbha karana. He can sleep round the clock. Apart from his bed, he loves to sleep on my bed and sofa. Most of the time he will sleep on bed with me and disturbs my sleep by his snoring.

Oh I almost forgot to mention, Bronzie is a big flirt. Bronzie believes in the concept “size does not matter”. lol… He will flirt with any dog. His list of girl friends ranges from Chihuahua to Australian Shepherd.

I never knew dogs can be so affectionate till I met Bronzie. No matter after how much time I come back home let it be after 5 minutes or 5 hours, he will behave as if I was gone forever and he missed me so much.

There are endless stories about him. I can fill pages on him but I should end this blog here. May be I will continue in next blog in the, hopefully, not so distant future. With him every day is a new adventure. For him life is play, snuggle, cuddle and play some more. My friends are overjoyed to see Bronzie and he loves getting attention from everyone. He, however, especially craves for my love and attention and I am more than happy to be there beside him. I am really thankful to him that he helped me realize that I have so much to offer.